February 2012
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One Week.
Okay, today it starts. the one week that might change everything. I’m so fucking excited and my heart keeps fluttering like mad..
Today I’ll be off to the examination for university in our capital city. And I wont be back before friday or saturday. One week of going to my limits and doing my best and even more! Today I will visit my brother and stay overnight there and then I’m...
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neurotic as usual.
we went to an eighties party last night and I felt like I did quite a good job in my costume and I nearly felt pretty. It was a wild night with lots of alcohol, vodka gummy bears and well, some LSD. oh dear, a wild wild night. but in the end I just felt as empty and lonly as usual. lying in my bed not even able to cry - just empty.
On the one hand I don’t want a boyfriend or something...
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Well, tomorrow the most horrible week of my entire life is going to start. phu, no, just kidding. hopefully it’s going to be a nice week with my best friend and this stupid qualifying examination will soon be over. I’m so fucking scared that I’m going to blame myself again, that I just hate myself afterwards for not doing the right thing and for not being good enough....
I won't eat until tomorrow!
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Reblog if you are 5’7” (1,70 m) and trying to lose...
tomorrow i will do better!
my plan for tomorrow:
just black coffee for breakfast
learn for the italian check up while riding the bus to school
in school: an apple and some bread with cheese
buy paper and a folder for my portfolio
at the bus home: learn italian again
at home: make myself some tea BEFORE i start eating to avoid an eating attack!!!!
eat some of the food my mother cooked (and tomorrow it won’t be...
1000 kcal so far. hm trying not to eat any more today, but eventually when i get really hungry in the evening i probably eat an apple or a banana.
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